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Sunday, June 01, 2008

The journey of my voice

guiLepig has been busy for the past few weeks..

finally got the chance to browse pple's blogs

& saw some posts that reali inspired today's entry..

in a wink, I have spent close to 23 yrs in this world..

in recounting the many experiences I had in life...

couldn't help but recount the happiest time was still the days I had in my schoolin times..

my PL darlings, my PL choir seniors - specially to Peiling, Yunwei, Adeline, Shuwei, my PL choir days, my chapel & worship sessions, The Great I am musical, my fat days - oh I love my canteen's food wahaha the nasi bryani yummy!hehe..

my days with AJC choir, my trip to prague, trial by jury musical, my choir seniors - specially to Cailing, Flora, Yanting, my diet days hehe

my uni days, my uni friens, FYP sucks! hehe, tennis days, my singing school friens - specially to my beloved teacher, YuXuan, edwin my mentor, joyce my first classmate, peiling, kim, my alumni choir days since AJ 50th anniversary, alumni friens specially jiji..

lookin back at my life, nothing is more memorable than purely singing and eating haha..

I have singing professionally ( I hope) for at least 10 yrs, and unprofessionally for 23 yrs since I was born... in the bathroom, in ktv hehe..

I used to think singing is smth so happy and carefree and effortless for me.. however, the past year, it suddenly daunt on me that I began to take my voice for granted. I began to feel that singing no longer can be effortless, as carefree and as happy as before.. I have pressure to perform, pressure to maintain my standards, pressure to be disciplined, pressure to attend practices/ classes; in midst of juggling between my work and private life.. I feel so lousy for not performin well & not reaching the high notes I used to reach.. perhaps I have expectations for my voice..

I began to dread gg ktv with my uni friens & colleagues... I began to fear gg for practices & classes on Sat.. I began to feel so tired to go for practices..

Sorry PY & YX for always being late for practices and classes.

I used to think - Am I too greedy for juggling with both pop & choral? pple around me - YZ, ET once tells me it is either choral or pop. my teacher tells me not to sing choral without proper trainin as it will strain your voice eventually. I chose to dis-believe all these as I love
both and chose to hold on. & today I can proudly say that I did not make the wrong decision..

My voice was a given gift from Buddha.. It was a blessing for me.

It was through this gift I got to know special pple in my life. pple I love, pple I treasure, pple I appreciate and grew up with. It was through this gift that I unraveled the little journeys & miracles in my life - like performin concerts. musicals for public at VCH & esplanade, performin solo at Tao's & for showcases, recordin demos for new composers, gg to prague & camps & carolings, joining the big aj alumni family.. It was smth I can proudly tell others & to my kids in future - see, Mama so li hai hahaha..

This year, two highlights have further touched me and regained my passion for singin - VoYage at Esplanade & FM showcase 3rd composing class

They were 2 sucessful events in my view - cos everyone in it enjoyed themselves and feel strongly for it. nevertheless nothing is perfect. The happy thing is it was better than I expected -
for choir, we received favourable feedback from audience & nelson, for showcase, the audience came to me sayin I sang well and she wanted to cry... Though I was all the way staring at my lyrics paper ( cos I could not memorise haha)

Singing - something I will not give up in my life. But I think I must learn to treasure this gift more and treat it with due care and respect which I never did in the past. hehe..

Some photos to recount the journey..

spot me! I always think I am tall enough haha as a girl..

May the girls of choir unite! Sounds familiar rite? he *-*

jiemin looks like a flower among the grass patch hehe

1, 2, 5 why jump number, JM?

Steamboat at nad's house.. jiji u r being missed!

I keep thinkin why I looked cross eyed here.

Then I rem is ryan's stupid self- taken camera haha.

jokin..

Soporanos! reach high high into the sky! he ^-^

friens, treasure the things that you like and have all these while.

it is often that the little dreams will bring you far far in life...

wanna watch narnia & kung fu panda! hehe..

p.s. dear dear, thanks for giving me the support during this hectic period. Love ya!one day, shall bring you to ktv and my concert to hear me sing hehe.. though I know u dun know how to appreciate hehe..ops! & stop sayin I never mention u to my friens, is blog a good channel haha..

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