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Saturday, June 03, 2006

very sick +tired + down +stress

Sick.. sick for 2 weeks..it started with flu then sore throat then cough now is headache and fever.. felt so tired for the past few weeks.. never been so tired and stressed in my life before.. not even for exams cos exams are for myself but work will affect others in the line.. Damn stressed the gla is on leave from next mon onwards.. she will gone off for a month i am gonna be dead.. i have no access to their system and have to trouble pple walking here and there.. i felt so useless sometimes.. but they all think so highly of me and pile work for me like a mountain.. i have to bring work home and work til 3am to figure out the stuff.. But i reali grew and learnt a lot of things for the past few weeks.. i wun not say i am enjoying it but i felt that i am acapable of doing thingd indepenedently.. the real world is there and cold and hard.. i have to fend for myself.. but my mentor is getting better she is smiling at me more often and not giving me face anymore.. though i must admit i am a computer idoit i hat coms!!! but noe i am zero to hero at excel liao..i am a expert liao.. but alas i still hate com! i wanna a bradn new laptop and mine singing fees are due.. i am damn broke.. stop tuition for three times liao.. gonna be broke.. wwanted to go exchange but my mum gives me that face and my sis was like i also never go why u must go.. jealous rite.. hai.. pressure from everyone so i might as well spare a thout for all except myself.. sometimes i realize i always put others first before my own interests.. i must reali fend for myself this time.. think i wun be able to pick off that habit.. sometimes when i give in pple take for granted and never appreciate one.. i felt that no one appreciates me no one comes and pats me and encourages me cos i think everyone only think for themsleves only.. my mum was like when is ur pay day then i was telling her i cant give u much i am broke leh.. she flared up:( she disregards my sickness and my late nights downstairs at the com.. no one gives a damn abt my well being.. goodness quarrel when i am sick and no voice.. helpless.. think i nid some love by some one.. where is that person??? i am hopeless..
enuff of my grumbles.. politics at office i heard two senoir staff complaining abt the head of the finance once again and drag me to the conversation.. i steered clear of that man.. i dun wanna be polluted i am alreadi so busy liao.. stop telling me abt her gossips.. and yet treat her so nice whne she is around.. pple are really scary.. hope i will not change into them when i am working next time.. i rather not talk and keep quiet.. sorry to karen for spreading my illness to her whne she having exams.. hope she will get her CAA with flying colours :) hope she recover soon..
my life is all abt work now i rarely have time to do things to enrich myself and rest !!! tired but no one i can talk to everyone has their probelms since no one can be mine pillar i can be others' pillar.. i dun mind.. i think i am quite strong haha@@
Phuah, if u see this blog entry please contact me cos i feel like combining my birthday treat with urs.. we share the bill at tao's treating all in one time.. u want? u owe me a treat kk cos i gave u hangbao u never treat me haha@ good luck for ur exams.. hope is ending soon ya?
take care my friends.. life is short yet tiring so be happier :)

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