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Friday, June 09, 2006

it's a gift to have loved ones around :) learn to treasure pple around me...

I was utterly touched by the tagboard :) cos i very lazy( i admit okie) i practically dun update my blog cos i sleep early + dun go online and nothing much to write about my life.. i am always repeating mylifestyle hai.. even worse now it's a routine to do almost everything on hand :( life is reali short and tiring..
Thanks to all my friends for giving me the concern.. just ignore me for the grumbling i did last week... i was just on the verge of breaking down after being sick for 2 weeks and OT for 2 weeks and getting scoldings and sarcastic remarks everyday abt the shit work i did for them.. halo i am an intern not ur maid or being pushed around.. especially when my mentor is not around they treat me like i am wonder woman " liping can u do this out, this is wrong leh please check, can u revive the missing trades and extract crus, patch the transactions... blah blah blah.." as if i know what is going on.. halo i am NEW i know nuts about anything when no one tells me too.. do u expect me to know all things just like that.. i admit i am a com idoit and a loser at the game of survivors.. i cant survive outside alone i wanna friends some one who acknowledges my presence and not treat me like their enemies i did nothing wrong kk??? hai, i think my happiest time is to eat lunch with fellow interns cos at least i see same fate pple.. but alas i rarely tell others about mine problems cos they also wun understand cos no one will bother abt my unhappiness when everyone has their own troubles and dislikes..
Perhpas i deal with it differently.. always, i have chosen to tolerate with my unhappiness and many dislikes cos i still feel that it is never an act or right of anyone to show ur unhappiness or anger or mood to anyone else.. it is rude and overbearing for anyone to show ur mood to anyone like those in my office.. u bad mood u dun like is ur problem please dun show it to pple around u kk cos pple are affected by ur face kk? dun think u senior so what!!! u are just being insensitive, ba dao and inconsiderate to others espcially to innocent pple like me.. heck care them...
despite the misgivings they did to me, i have chosen to believe that as long as i happy with myself and did nothing wrong and treat eveyone with a sincere heart, things will turn out well.. indeed today i receive a nic epat from my colleague "liping, u did fine dun so stressed kk?" " pple, are just like that dun be too upet over their stuff.." that is the pain of being alone in one department wiht no one else to pei u :(
something nice happen today too.. hope is not a horror in the end..
So my sec friends, please rem our dates for our birthday i have decided to join celebrate wiht phuah to invite all for a good lunch.. wait til i work the sums out wiht her kk? and find a good place to eat with all of ur.. let's vote tao's? waruku? kuinshi bon? sakura buffet? with more money we can have a decent.. argh peijuan will be back for the treat haha@@ u ah dun think too much kk? just be happy and the rest heck care like me..
too much to think abt.. another good news i might be going back to teach at ajc econs cos mrs chong call me to join them after my intern i still thinking cos i think i need a rest.. hope i will be able to go abroad for a while to recharge.. maybe with my family...
away from this fast paced world.. someitmes i think i dun belong to this era and world.. the world will; continue to spin without me rite?
Cheers to the week ahead. hope the work ahead for me is brighter and easier.. i will survive and be strong.. waiting to get back at school..
quarrel with my sis again in the morining.. she is giving that pissed look again when i use the toilet what's worng wiht you i am already so tired please dun let me shout kk? i no voice.. i just had to wake up early to eat bk breakfast cannot izzit.. weill die ah? just cant understand why pple has grown to be so selfish and insensitive.. NO i will not be like them.. i will only do undo others when others do undo me.. i beleive in this.. how u treat pple u will have karma one haha.. cursing all those haha@@ scarely they all cursing me.. beleive me it's time to reflect ur own life and upgrade urself.. i think i also need some food for thought... reading some book to enlighten myself :)
CYa soon my friends :0

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