today i feel happie for the first time since the funeral... this week is a busi week cos everday must go out and eat and celebrate my birthdae.. sure fat one.. haha but fat is xin fu for mi ;P today i happie cos i met up with mani long-lost friens..all of them change liao.. but at least they update mi with their lifes... i meet wenli for the first time since hols... she looks so worried and sad.. i feel xin tong for her but i am glad i managed to make her smile with my silly behaviour and stories haha ;P then today i meet baoling and phuah darling for dinner at bk.. the spicy burger not spicy one!!! cheat my feelings one!!! but i enjoyed my meal with them and even though compass pt is a boring place afterall but i managed to buy some bras haha again rite?
i also met lionel again for two times.. he did not change at all!!! haha still neva slim down!!! perhaps i too straight forward liao... but that is mi lar haha ;P then i realized all my friens change liao.. reali alot perhaps i still running in circles or on the same spot.. suddenly at nite i red rainie's blog.. i cried wiht the touching music and entries.. i see her so xin fu now i feel emotional.. time reali flies.. i decided to let go certain stuff i have been holding for so long in the past few years.. now i should feel contented that i stil have a big happie family (though we quarrel but i love them all) and a big clinque of friens i love veri much... therefore nothing else is missing and not complete i should have felt contented with what i have.. and not ask for more... all is fated!!! perhaps thanks to rainie i suddenly realize i am alreadi happie in my current life and i am not alone afterall with all these love around mi.. perhaps is the birthdae effect i can't sleep tonite is 135 am now... i neva feel so free and peace at my heart.. perhaps i am released from all the torture i had all these while... time to start afresh again guilepig... it's a brand new day and future ahead.. happie-go-lucky is my original self ... boon i reali hope to see u soon though i know i will busi for this week and so but i will try my best to squeeze time for u here and there... my birthdae is coming and why r u not back? every year since we became close u celebrated with mi.. christmas too... sort of emotional now.. i wil stop calling u an animal... my this week schedule is packed with activities and next mon is meishan book mi, jean they all tue, wed swimming.. kk busi ahead and perhaps this will make mi happier and forget all troubles and start afresh.. my $30 is not back yet.. haha time to chase after mine bad debts...
lastly i just wanna say thanks to all who treasured mi and make mi happie during this week and in the past and future too!!! i love all of u!!! i will be on longer sulking just be happie and smile :P take care all my friens and i neva regret knowing any of ur!!! and i also made a new frien at my work place no 2 new friens who r quite nice.. 0ne is a singer at ming ge can ting leh cool rite? so cool i love to sing!!!! maybe one day i will fulfill my dreams!!! that day will come soon!!! haha i believe :P neva be one who dun dream cos i dare to dream and big ones too ask wenli n boon they will know.. they should be thinking that i have unrealistic ones.. can't sleep leh dun noe why hai... this is endless typing.. thnaks to my brilliant wenli i got a tag board now go and tag it!!! i love to see comments espcially silly or funny ones haha...kk go and count sheeps n camels perhaps i will sleep soon haha.. nitezzz pple ;P

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