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Thursday, June 16, 2005

my VeRi first posting... a sad one too :(

today is the end of everything... he is gone forever.. into ashes or i would hope he is in his paradise- a safe place where flowers bloom fo him.. i once promised him that i will play chess and have tea with him.. that is a promise i did not fulfill and for that i regretted til now.. "at least his pain is gone" is what everyone tells mi.. i know of such a thing but he left his pain to us to my grandma... that day i see her wept over his body.. i could not bear the scene of her falling in front of mi.. she is strong indeed after a year of mental torture with his sickness... i could recall mine young memories of him... he is reali gone.. no more happie and crowded faces for the new years to come no more ah gong birthdaes to celebrate... no more.. the sad thing is that he did not even know that his two sons r gone before him... mine heaven at ah gong's house is gone.. gone forever... the chidren running around, the laughter, the food.... do all of us grow up losing some things and gaining others at the same time.. i rather not grow up... i used to be afraid of death.. not myself dying but pple leaving mi one by one.. and i will be alone in this world... it's painful to seee them leaving u.. this i have to learn to let go.. sometime i reali wonder do things last in this world? do love last? do memories last? do family last? will all things perish and u will be left alone again... no one is alone in this world that;'s what someone says

11:10 PM